Loneliness💤

 .   . 3 AM. ..    

Everything is fine until 12. You are talking with some people that keeping you busy. As night gets deeper one by one starts to fall asleep and at 1 am the last person you are talking to text you "Good night". Well, Now you are all alone surfing Fb, insta ,snap and else. At a time when you are all done you remember that at this time a few months back you weren't alone at all. Someone was there for you , sending you text , memes, listening to your voice notes and replying back with the same energy. You were so happy that You forgot When It was time for Fazr and After Fazr You people watched the sunrise together and shared each other how amazing it was. After all that You send her a voice note to sleep cuz both of you were awake all night and in that voice note there is a lot of love, care and A bond that the person is soo important. Both of you send voice notes and tell each other to sleep taratari. And after 10 minutes of good night finally it ends. You listen to the last voice note and feel like your world is fulfilled. Everything is worth it. Someone is there to listen to your nonsense🙃. You feel happy and sleep smiling thinking about the person.

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... Sorry I got lost , Getting to the pont. It's 3 am and no one is online to talk to you. Something hits you all of a sudden and you start overthinking on certain matters. At a time you think about blocking every single person you talk to but then you remember je You can't Do it. You are just an option to them for passing their unnecessary time but for you they are your everything. They listen to you which keeps you away from all kinds of bad thoughts about life and other incidents. You think you are important to them but only when they need you to listen to them. They give you late replies when they don't bother listening to your voice notes. Why can't you do the same 🙃? It's gets 3:30 am. You play COD or Pubg but after 3 matches you realise that you suck at the game too. Your teacher tells you that You can't ever be successful in life. The people you term as friends will never have your back and you know it still you are there for them. At the end Its close to 4 am and you are already asleep on the Couch. The same routine goes on for tomorrow and the day tomorrow until you find the person to talk to you at 3 am and share the same energy as you. Its hard to find a person like that and Its gets harder when that person isn't there for you after a certain time. Don't get addicted to someone's text. Believe me when I say that Nobody is gonna be there for you at the end.

" We are made of all those who have build and broken us"

            - Arsena